when i re-read posts from my past – i realize that my thoughts from even a year ago have changed drastically, however i’m always in this loop of – what’s next?
what if tomorrow never came?
would i be content leaving my name as is?
it seems that the older i get – the more i experience – the less i truly know.
the less i trust my judgement on my own actions – beliefs.
school and work and sleep take up most hours of my life
i can only hope that it will all be worth it in the end – but nothing’s guaranteed.
i’m forced to face my daily unscheduled schedule and ‘hope’ for the best – believe that everything happens for a reason, but struggle with certain issues in my life that i have no control over – of which there are many.
it’s funny how life works. you’ve got to stay busy to stay alive.
it seems that frequently, i’m speeding through – rushing through because i’ve got to do this, i’ve got to do that.
i wonder what things would be like without a worry in the world.
i’m stressing my physics class & procrastinating.
that’s where this is coming from.
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i’m complaining, i know i know – but it isn’t ALL that bad – i’ve been more happy than sad recently
yay
You wrote: “… it seems that frequently, i’m speeding through – rushing through because i’ve got to do this, i’ve got to do that. i wonder what things would be like without a worry in the world. ”
As for the part of “got to do”, no you really don’t. You have more choices than you think. There are consequences to our actions, but these are not always what we think they will be. And you need not do things the way everyone else does or even to try to. Make your own Rules … after all … It is your Life!
ahhhh easier said than done! i’m constantly thinking about my future – and unfortunately, i can’t get ahead without getting through these obstacles – i feel like i still have a lot i need to get done – a road that’s been paved. can’t exactly jump ahead of myself. can’t become successful over night. bloop. =/
Guess it depends on your take of “successful”. Money / Power / Love / Fame … So many people have this drive to accumulate as much wealth (stuff) as possible. Maybe it’s that perfect relationship (with 2.25 kids) that you desire. Or become a Nobel prize winner. How about leader of a powerful nation or CEO of a large corporation. All these are possibilities. What about happiness? Does success = happiness? What will you sacrifice to get these things? Life / only one per customer!
brought up a great point – does success = happiness. that’s a damn dilemma i can’t let go of. my greatest fear is that after so many years of training, school, experience – i won’t love my future occupation. that after all of this struggle, my ‘success’ can only be measured by monetary values – which isn’t what i’m going for. at this point in my life – i THINK i know where i see myself in ten years, miss phd – hopefully, mrs. phd. but i can’t see into the future so i’ve got to take it on day by day. i guess i’m really just scared of growing up and stressing myself because the definition of happiness and success are so multi-dimensional.
hi Ania! Welcome back love! quick question, how did you change your font on the heading?
Love that look.
Must steal it from you.
xoxo
thank you! if you’re referring to my -missannakay heading, that comes with my theme! but if you’re wondering about all the fonts at the very top of each post, i actually use http://www.dafont.com to create phrases and save them as pictures, than i insert! i think that looks pretty cool :) either way, thanks for sticking around to read my stuff! <3!